God is Here
Be encouraged as you read these replies sent in by mentees.
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“Thank you very very much for replying. I don’t know if what just happened is possible. As I was reading your email, I wasn’t sure how I would react, as I was not religious at all and in truth, I didn’t believe in God. As I was reading your prayer, I began to cry and I don’t understand why. I fell to the floor on my knees and cried hard, my body felt very heavy. I got up on my knees and folded my hands up, tight against my chest and felt my heart vibrate harder than ever against my hands. I began to beg Him to help me overcome the stress in my life and guide me through the decision of whether or not I should stay friendly with my ex boyfriend. The more I prayed, the more I calmed down and finally I felt the weight being lifted off of me and I opened my eyes and felt my heart beat. What my heart was telling me was that I should do as best as I can in high school to be able to move away from the stress in this house and move somewhere better, calmer. Whether or not that is where my ex lives is a mystery to me, but I really really hope that’s where I am destined to go. Do you believe that what I just experienced was possible or normal? Whatever happened just now, I believe in Jesus and God and I believe that they really do look over everyone after all, even those who were lost.”
2.
“First, I was wondering if God ever replies back to you in your prayers, or am I just insane? I’ve talked it over with a friend that is also depressed, and she says that He is always there, and replies when she prays. Like His replies just come back as your own thought, but there is no negativity and always love and encouragement, but at the same time He guides you to do the right things.
Also, I truly asked Jesus to come into my life and guide me to do the right things.
This was after I woke up crying in the middle of the night. That happened a lot. But this time I was so scared. I had that same old feeling, where it felt like I was stumbling around in the dark, feeling for something, but could never find it. I guess you could say I felt lost.
I decided to let it all go, and I started praying right there. I asked God to help me and to guide me and to take over my life. I had done this many times before, but because they told me to in church. This time I did it not because I was afraid of the consequences if I didn’t, because I was no longer in denial. I had finally realized that I wasn’t in this by myself, and I really needed to be guided because I wasn’t leading my life the right way. After my first real (that’s what I’m calling it now, because it was the first one that came from my heart) prayer, that’s when God started talking with me, in my prayers.
But, that was the question and the other “story” that leads into the night that I was healed.
I was in the car, driving out to my cabin, and I kept praying to God to give me the strength and faith to talk to my mom about some possible therapy. I kept getting so close to doing it, but I could just never spit out the words.
I’ve been thinking about these things that happened. I believe that the reason I was able to tell my mother was because I finally had let myself fully trust and have faith in God.
I had asked for God to take over my life many times before, but I believe that I was still afraid, and not truly letting Him lead me. This time, I stopped worrying. And I let Him truly, really, totally, guide me.
After that, the words came out so easily. I can’t really remember my mom’s reaction because of the amazing thing that was happening inside me. I felt so whole, and light and just altogether happy and complete. I know Jesus Christ or my guardian angel was there with me at that moment. Maybe they were always there, but I was just numb to it before.
But it turns out that depression runs in my family, but I was the first to be healed, because God does what no medicine can do.
As I said I’ve been thinking about it a lot, and now I’ve noticed how much the illness really affected me. I am now happy, healthy and outgoing. I do not put myself down constantly. I am no longer sensitive to things people say, because honestly I don’t care anymore. I don’t think about suicide. I have started to love my enemies, no matter what they have done. I have stopped talking about people behind their backs, and I have stopped lying (it’s not like I was a compulsive liar, but I used to lie about when I had high blood sugars).
There is no way to put how much I want to thank you into words. Thank you for encouraging me to tell my parents about it. Thank you for turning my life around, because honestly, I probably would have committed suicide within the next couple months.
Also, do you think I’m completely healed? I don’t think it will ever come back. But, eh, maybe.
You’re so amazing for taking this job, and though I never knew you and rarely emailed you, I will never forget you because you saved my life.”
A note from Terri; It’s a pleasure and privilege to work alongside each and every one of you.
May all Jesus is and all He gives bless you this Christmas and always.
Terri
- Terri’s Tuesday Tip will resume in 2010.
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